Thursday, August 25, 2011

peace that passes ALL understanding.

DEATH. For some, that word tends to leave a nasty sting. To them, it is as if everything good is over. For believers though, it’s a time of rejoicing and realizing your loved one has entered Heaven. In the past week this has all been rolling around in my head. My grandfather passed away on Thursday, August 18th, around 7:30 in the morning. Now I won’t go into all the details, but I will say that he has been very sick for the past 10+ years, but recently he had been getting much, much worse. Granted, we were all attempting to “prepare” ourselves for his death, thinking it would come in the months to come. It was one of those things you think to yourself, “well, it COULD happen tomorrow..” But it never does. Every day you keep telling yourself that – and everyday it doesn’t happen. You just keep praying – because I believe in healing – until the very last breathe someone breathes. Well like I said, Thursday morning, he took his last breathe. And of course, initially I was shocked it had happened so soon. I was sad. I cried. I was so sad to see my grandma so sad. I was sad to see my mom sad.  And also I was sad because I knew I’d miss my grandpa’s tough handshake. His jokes that weren’t actually that funny – but always made you laugh. His ridiculous frugality, and well, him just being here. So obviously, I shed some tears, I grieved. I’m sure I’ll still have days ahead of me that I’ll think about it and be sad, I’ll miss him. But as I looked around at the viewing – the funeral – and even the burial, I saw people balling. Just crying their hearts out. And I know everyone handles situations differently, and that they have different ways of mourning. That’s completely understandable. Nevertheless, through all of this, I couldn’t help to think – are they crying because they think they’ll never see him again? Are they crying because they think their time together is over? I know I was sad for a time – but when someone is a believer, I know their death is a time of rejoicing! They have gone to Heaven to be with Jesus – nothing is better than that! And though the last few years haven’t been the best for my grandfather – mentally & physically – I do believe Jesus was his Lord and Savior, and I am so happy he is in Heaven, with a new and improved body, completely healed and well! So – I guess the point of this little post is that – though I was completely sad and down, especially for the first couple of days – I keep meditating on verses such as, “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in the spirit. A righteous man will have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all. (Psalm 34:18-19) or, “Lord, You know the hopes of the helpless, surely you will hear their cries and comfort them.” (Psalm 10:17) Which is totally what He did in this situation!  I’m completely in awe of the peace that can come over you, and it’s all because of Jesus. At one point through all of this, I thought I was missing something, because I wasn’t bawling like a lot of others (I guess mostly unbelievers) but then I realized, it was them that were missing something! And that something? JESUS. His peace passes ALL understanding.

“Very truly I tell you, whoever obeys my word will NEVER see death."
  -John 8:51

Monday, August 8, 2011

PRESS IN.

Summer has been absolutely amazing & I cannot believe it is almost already over! I've been so incredibly blessed these past few months.
 

  • Creation 2011
  • Missions Trip: Nenana, Alaska!


Creation 2011 was amazing! Sermons, speakers, bands, fellowship with friends, and worship just put you in awe of God. Seeing 60,000+ teens worshiping for Jesus is just absolutely breathtaking, it makes me think of what Heaven is going to be like!
At the lookout, just snapping a picture of SOME of the people :)
Worship = <3


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I don't even know where to begin with Alaska. I start sentences and before I even complete them I remember another awesome memory! I will attempt to sum it all up to the best of my ability. No matter what though, words will not do it justice. At all. I never went to bed the night before I left, stayed up til I finally could go to the airport at 3 in the morning. Instead of heading straight to Alaska, I had to fly to Texas, where I spent the next three days in the 110+ degree heat training. During layovers in the airport a lady from Texas said to me, "Texas is hot and ugly. You'll hate it." At the time I laughed her comment off, thinking she just didn't appreciate where she lived. Honestly though - she was quite correct. I'm sure some places of Texas are beautiful - but it definitely made me appreciate my PA hills and beautiful views. Anyways - training was beyond intense. I remember hearing people saying they just wanted to go home. It definitely was tougher than any of us had ever imagined, and Satan was definitely trying to divide us all, break us down, and completely rip us apart. Praise God for Him allowing us to make it through the doubts, sweat, tears, and hard work! Finally - we left for Alaska! It had seemed like we have been waiting forever - but at the same time - so weird that it was right in front of us! I do remember feeling and thinking. This missions trip is supposed to be TWO WEEKS. We just spent a few days TRAINING. We could've spent those days witnessing to the Alaskans! I remember being frustrated on the plane - thinking why does it have to take so long to travel, all I wanna do is get there and spread the Word of God! After awhile - it dawned on me. Though this missions trip was TO Alaska, I can witness and talk to people about Jesus ANYWHERE. On the plane, on a bus, in the airport, EVERYWHERE. I believe that Jesus wanted me to realize this vital piece of information, to be able to come home and tell kids that they don't have to go on some big fancy trip to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ. All of my frustration seemed to dissolve away in that moment. Many airplanes, bus', and hours later, we had arrived in Nenana, Alaska! FINALLY! :] The excitement was overwhelming, in such a wonderful way. The entire Alaska group got split up into three villages - I was placed in the beautiful village of Nenana. Everyday that we were there we were quite busy. Hanging out with natives, working in the graveyard [might sound strange, but their graveyard is very special and meaningful to them], hosting movie nights at their REC center, having a worship night in the town hall we stayed in, and so much more And honestly - I didn't expect to get so much out of this trip myself - now, don't take that the wrong way. I just thought I would be pouring into others lives, not my own. But our God is so wonderful! It was like I was a dry sponge, and Jesus dumped me in a bucket. I came back so filled, so on fire, so..changed. I could go on about this forever. It just puts me in awe. I'm amazed. Wow. But anyways - I have LOTS of little stories about meeting AMAZING people - talking to people - work we did there [ha, good times in the cemetery!] and an awesome story on healing, in Texas on our last day of debriefing! A day we spent in Anchorage, we had praise and worship going on in the middle of the park - and seeing Jesus draw people in, to watch, to listen, to get saved..was something I will NEVER forget. We had done the Lifehouse "Everything" Skit in Nenana, on our night of worship, and at Anchorage that day, we had to do it 3+ times! It was WONDERFUL. Seeing people's lives touched through a drama is so powerful. All in all, this doesn't even come close to describing my complete experience in Alaska. I can't exactly put it into words, I just know that Jesus did a mighty work in myself, in the people I met in Texas, and the people of Alaska, and for that, I am truly thankful. I'm sure there will be individual stories that I will want to share later - so be expecting of it! 

PS- "Press In" was the name of our specific group in Alaska!

Just part of the cemetery we worked in - it was so huge, so peaceful, so sad, and so beautiful all at the same time!

Had to take this picture - beautiful cross. :)

A native took us on a boat ride! So awesome! Oh & this is my new friend Jaclyn. :)

..fish :p

Coffee. Realllllly good coffee. Enough said. :)

Largest Mt. in North America? I think so! Beautiful? Beyond.

I LOVE THESE GUYS SO MUCH. <3

Heading to the graveyard, in the back of a van.. :p

"Everything" Skit. Such a blessing. 





There's gonna be brighter days..

Each time that I've pondered over the name of this blog, the song, "Move" by Mercy Me has either popped into my head, started playing, or just stood out to me. And it has happened multiple times. The line, "I just might bend; but I won't break" really stuck out to me, since it seems to describe life for me right now. I know that I will go through trials - but that I will ALWAYS make it through, by the grace of God! So if you haven't heard this song, I definitely urge you to check it out!


I'm not about to give up
Because I heard You say
There's gonna be brighter days
There's gonna be brighter days
I won't stop, I'll keep my head up
No, I'm not here to stay
There's gonna be brighter days
There's gonna be brighter days

I just might bend; but I won't break
As long as I can see Your face

When life won't play along
And right keeps going wrong
And I can't seem to find my way
I know where I am found
So I won't let it drag me down
Oh I'll keep dancing anyway

I'm gonna move 
I'm gonna move
I'm gonna move

I've got to hold 'er steady
Keep my head in the cage
Everything is about to change
Everything is about to change

The hurt is getting heavy 
But I'm not about to cave
Everything is about to change
There's gonna be brighter days

I just might bend; but I won't break 
As long as I can see Your face

No matter what may come
Gotta move to a different drum
No matter what life brings
Gotta move 
Gotta move to a different beat

I just might bend; but I won't break
As long as I can see Your face